Answered prayers..

So for those of you who don't know, February 1st is the day I will find out exactly where I will be going to medical school in 2011.  This process has been SO trying on my patience.  I started gathering together information for the application process starting in September 2009.  It is now December 2010 and I STILL do not know where I'm going.  Even though I have been relatively good the past year at keeping my calm and trusting God...there are times when I just can't handle the uncertainty anymore and I just break down.  Yesterday was one of those days...

I was on the way to the gym when I heard a song with lyrics that I could relate to at this point in my life.  I started getting frustrated about my future and my "life plan" and just started crying.  I have not learned to love the uncertainties in life yet to say the least.  I am such a planner and a "slight" control freak.  I am used to always knowing what's going on at all times.  So now you can see why this has been such a test of my faith :)

So I pulled myself together and started working out to get rid of all my nonsense.  Running ALWAYS makes me feel better.  Maybe that's why I run so much! Most girls right now find boyfriends for support...but I just run :)  Well it didn't work yesterday.  I started crying while I was running! Now how's that for embarrassing?  I could not pull myself together for some reason.  I just felt like my world was collapsing.  So I changed the music I was listening to and finished my workout. 

I got in my car and noticed I had an email in my gmail account (med school).  I stared at that notification for what seemed like a minute and finally decided to open it.  It was an acceptance letter from UT San Antonio, my #2 school!! I was in shock.  I thought the pre-match season was practically over so I had not been expecting any more offers from schools.  I immediately started screaming at the top of my lungs and then crying allll over again.  That was totally God answering my prayers :)

He seriously knows how much I can handle.  I think I was at my breaking point yesterday.  The little miracle of answering my prayer SO FAST was amazingly beautiful :)  It's moments like these that make me realize that no matter how alone or confused I feel...God is always there holding me.  For those of you going through rough times in your life...just trust.  Prayers are all heard and answered.  All you can do is pray for patience and wait...

So now I know I will either be in Houston or San Antonio next year.  How's that for a little more certainty? :)

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer"
- Romans 12:12