Inspirations

Hello blogging world! I have been wanting to start a blog for a few months now, but have not had a good reason to until now.  I am a senior at Texas A&M University in College Station (WHOOP!!) and sadly graduating in May.  I will be starting medical school (somewhere..?) in 2011.  This will be a brand new chapter and big transition in my life.  My life will more or less be locked in place for the next 7 years at least.  I bet all of you are thinking I'm insane right now.  Well possibly..haha we'll see.  Medicine has been my drive and passion for as long as I can remember so at least I'm signing up for something I love, right?

My main inspiration for starting this blog, however, comes from the beautiful people God has let me grow close to this past semester.  They have shown me how much I have grown from my initial steps as a freshman to my last aggie football game.  I was told before college that people "find their true selves" in college.  Well I am not a fan of cliches, so I chose to ignore it.  Surprisingly, I have to say that this could not be more true.  I conformed to those around me in high school.  Most of this stemmed from the fact that our school was so small.  However, I chose to change my life in college.

I put God first and foremost in my life in August 2007.  I was scared about making friends and the hard journey ahead.  I was away from home.  I had noone to lean on for the first time...and that's when I started fully depending on God for everything in my life.  It's amazing how laying that foundation first suddenly allowed me to face my fears.  I was not conforming for the first time and it was such a feeling of relief and peace.  I made the most amazing friends that supported me and helped me grow in my faith.  Basically my first year I dedicated to spiritual growth and education, because school was not challenging me...yet. 

The next two years are honestly blurs to me.  All I remember doing is studying and studying...and more studying.  I had all my hardest classes my 2nd and 3rd years.  I did this on purpose so I could enjoy my senior year.  You may be asking...was it worth all the tears??  Yes.  Best decision I've ever made.

Finally, senior year.  This semester was truly amazing.  I finally started nurturing old friendships and making new ones.  The new ones that I made, however, changed my view on life.  The past three years I have grown to be quite independent...with a touch or so of feminism.  I believed that I didn't need men or deep friendships for support.  I believed that I would succeed quite well by myself.  It has worked so well for me so why change things? Well little did I realize that I was just scared of opening up myself to anyone for fear of being disappointed or hurt.  When I finally let someone in this year, it made me realize what beautiful people are out there for me to learn from.  My friendships this year have renewed my faith in love and relationships.  This blog will help me continue this journey of melting my heart to let others in.  I am open to any and all comments and hopefully I can touch some hearts as well :)